To My Future Wife Part 4

 To My Future Wife,

It's been awhile.
So I've been thinking (aren't you glad that I think?), not about who/where you are and what your name is in this reality we share, but, rather, who's you are.  Sounds strange doesn't it?  Strange because when I think about the context of this letter to you-To My Future Wife Part 4- its as though the answer to that question should be clear, cliche, and simple: you're mine and I am yours.
                               However, there's something unsettling inside me...

I've been praying for you.

In the past few days, I've been really praying for you.  Its been a total fascination: the more you grow in knowledge with understanding of who God is, your words begin to take on a new form.  I've seen how my prayers before Dad have been transfigured before my eyes without me ever realizing.  I've heard the echoes of supplication in my heart for you beginning a new rhythm, an unfamiliar rhythm.

      ...And oh how I've felt my lips tremble when I make mention of you..when I lift petitions regarding you...

that Dad would bless:

Your relationship with your family- that you would find spending time with your mother and father more precious and valuable than memories made with friends.
  That you would glean from your mother's wisdom and not disregard them
   That you would see your father's love to a daughter as an incomparable joy
     only you can know
   That you would find the resolve to make honoring your parents a lifelong mission
    That you would develop respect and trust with your sibling(s): biological and spiritual
Your mind, intellect, and education- that you would not only be sharpened, but be the sharpener to those who need it- to edify, teach and make aware.
Your decision-making- that whatever path you choose, the Holy Spirit will guide and lead you, giving you the peace that Jesus promised He would give.

...Your heart...
                          And lo, here is what brings my lips to tremble...

...I pray that Dad would bless Your heart- that Jesus Himself would guard your heart in all of His jealousy over you; in that, whosoever should woo your heart it would be because He has allowed it....


And so I've been thinking...

I've been remembering Who's you are and I cannot help myself but to be perturbed at the thought of it.

You must remember dear Future Wife, that one of the scariest things any (aspiring) man of God can do is: to court a daughter of a Holy God who's indignation is Righteous; who's judgment is Just; and who's Love for you is more jealous than the grave...

Perhaps this is what it means to pray in the fear of the Lord...

Oh Fairest of Women!

...Before you are my Wife,
                                you are and will always be first...
                                                          the most beautiful daughter of the Most High God...